I did it again. I activated Instagram…and it was a mistake. I should have known better. In fact, I DO know better. But I didn’t listen to myself. Once again I found so much time in my day wasted. Scrolling. Scrolling. Just too much mindless scrolling. I started feeling restless, anxious and dissatisfied instead of grateful for the life I have.
Maybe other people aren’t so sensitive to the constant advertising, bragging and competition. But clearly I am. I just start comparing my life to other people’s perfectly curated little squares and I feel a little less than. But I shouldn’t. God has given me so many graces and blessings in my life that I am truly grateful for.
It was all just too much.
So, I deleted it again. And I’m already feeling SO much lighter. The thing is, you don’t have to compete with everyone else. It’s okay to not have social media accounts even though it feels like everyone else does. It’s okay to go against the current trends. You don’t have to live in a perfectly styled and updated home. It’s okay to not wear the latest fashions and instead turn to the sweater you’ve owned for 6+ years that is so comfy and perfectly worn in.
I kept telling myself that I needed Instagram to promote the blog. The truth is, I don’t. If I have people find the blog and stick around…awesome. If not, that’s okay too. Because what I want out of this isn’t popularity or a million views. I want this to be a place to document my journey of motherhood and exploring my faith.
So, here’s to trying to be less focused on blog traffic and what everyone else in the world is doing and instead focusing on the things that really matter.